Because I'm so critical of myself I feel other women are also-judging me. Even with my 'friends' I get nervous thinking how to hide my flaws and flaunt my accolades like I normally do. Tonight I chose differently. This time I listened. I only shared one current event with one other. The remainder of the time I listened to their current events, and to the oh-you-just-waits with regards to my little one and my other friend's baby. When my little one decided it was time to go I scooped her and her things up hugged, kissed and said my I love you's quickly before my little one furthered her melt down.
What I noticed this time was I didn't feel judged. It was I who had judged myself and by not hiding my flaws or flaunting my accolades "I" had nothing to judge. It felt good. I'm such the planner while you are talking to me I'm already planning my response-I hear you but not really listening. This time I listened. Not talking about myself freed my mind to take in what was going on in their lives and no judgment. I think maybe that's the secret of being a good friend and an even better close friend is the not talking, just listening. My Monday-albeit early was 'mindful' and something I will continue.