Really not sure what happened to the before me, gym rat nutritional nerd. This postpartum stuff is exhausting. And where is my gentler more forgiving side to remind myself statistics show a mother having a baby in her 40's and being a stay at home mom is a double whamy. It will take me twice as long as a mother in their twenties who works out of home to physically, mentally and emotionally feel even close to my pre baby self.
This talk of 'supermom'? I don't give a flying duck fart I just want to be 'normal mom'. Keep telling myself this too so shall pass. Please pass quickly. On my good days I take a step forward. Then bad days visit and I can go from 2 or more steps back! Keep concentrating on the one step forward is difficult when I start to feel all for naught. These ppd days I am reminded how the pregnancy support and postpartum support is very different.
Not just talking about medical support but family/friends support has also changed. No one really mentioned that part about pregnancy. Although I did have a friend discuss how while being pregnant others will treat me as though as I no longer exist it's all about the belly. And said friend did make sure her attention was directed towards me. Wonderful. But what after.
During the first few weeks plenty of family and friends, even medical staff called, emailed or texted to check in on the new mom and new baby. Almost 16 months later the newness has faded and so has the support. It's tough because my pp issues haven't faded, still here. This is where I feel like when will this pp stuff fade. Where is the light at the end of this pp tunnel? Maybe ppa will fade in tomorrow and my ppd will fade out long enough for me to at least get this house cleaned.