Had to keep reminding myself I'm not Marty McFly- I don't travel in time and need to remain 'present'. I for some reason like to torture myself with the past. The ambulance trip in particular. Stay present and focused.
I've cut down sugar to a mere <35mg a day. I've had a headache all week. A large zit surfaced. My moods have definitely been altered. Sugar detox sucks. So add that to the list of reasons why my days have felt dark.
The other night I felt out of body while watching my little one play. Incidentally, being out of body doesn't help the ppa. Can't win for losing. Just looking at her I kept thinking, "Who is this little person?" What omniscent power felt I was capable of raising a human being? Wished I had that power's confidence.
I fell asleep to Patton...sky cake makes me feel better! Maybe I should get those lamps for SAD sufferers?